hmm...

It's very easy to sit back and tout how we've got to stand up for 'normal' bodies and stop focusing on weight loss. But then I look in the mirror and I just WISH I looked as fit as I felt. Why isn't there some happy in between land? I am running 2-3 times per week, working out 3-4 times per week and I thought being reasonably healthy (within limits). But I weigh the most I've ever weighed. And I look fat. I do. My legs have lost their shape. How can I find an in between? I know it's not the be all and end all, and I'm grateful for a body that works and functions but can't I have some happy medium? I guess that's what I'm learning. Genetically women in my family have big thighs, it's just a fact. I've also been drinking wine during the week so I could slow down on that, and I have dessert almost every night, so perhaps I can swap that for a tea most nights and just have a dessert some times? I also think maybe I have too much fat, so I could slow down on the fat. Maybe I need to see a dietitian..