Day 6 Intuitive Eating Diary Monday 17th October

I did something silly today. I tried on another wedding dress. And I loved it. Except I was a bit lumpy underneath and thought I need to lose some weight and just get a lot tighter and more toned. I need to exercise more - do my 3 weight trainings per week and cardio too. But I'll stick with intuitive eating.

Today was a good day except I did feel fat and puffy and I had to keep reminding myself dieting got me here, this is the only way out. I will only GAIN weight if I put it on. I look at people who are fit and healthy and do body building meal plans or Michelle Bridges but I wonder how their brain is. I need to develop my healthy relationship with food more, and realise that healthy eating isn't just about the food, it's about my thoughts about eating too. So I'm looking forward to developing that relationship and it becoming normal.

B: -3 2 weetbix, almond & coconut milk, handful muesli; tea +4
S: -2 flat white +2
L: 1 egg, fried in a little butter with sauteed brussels sprouts, potatoes, spring onions, tinned tomato, capsicum and zucchini +2 - I still felt a bit peckish after this but halfway to the station for uni my fullness kicked in and I was about +4
S: long black (tired, not hungry)
S: -2 chocolate protein shake +4
S: -3 banana +1
D: -4 2 eggs, scrambled, 2 pieces gluten free toast (1 with vegemite), bowl of lettuce with kelp, ACV & EVOO +1
S: Mug hot almond and coconut milk +2

I felt a bit snackish tonight. I'm struggling with my brain saying "you ate and drank so much on the weekend, how could you not be full all day?" and my stomach saying I haven't eaten enough. Come to think of it I really didn't eat THAT much on teh weekend and didn't go THAT overboard. The servings weren't huge at the wedding and I really just filled up on lollies and wine... Plus I barely ate most of yesterday until last night.

Finding the balance between brain and belly is definately the most difficult part of all of this but I'll keep trying! I think it's going to take a while yet before I trust that I can eat things like bread and cereal, etc.etc. so I'll just have to be patient. It's hard with my wedding coming up, but truth be told, even if I go on a 'diet' I'd end up fatter anyway, so may as well try something that might actually work and doesn't rely on will power.